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Undoing the Fall of Man: Obedience after Disobedience

“If God had commanded her (Mary) to carry out with her own hands that crucifixion which an inscrutable Providence had placed in the hands of the wicked, she would have obeyed with all the promptness and resoluteness expected of one perfectly submissive to the laws of the Creator.” 
(From The Cross of Jesus, Fr. Louis Chardon, OP)

This is a shocking statement. It disturbs us on a very deep level. How can anyone dare say that Mary, the gentle and loving mother, would venture to carry out the crucifixion if the executioners had refused? It seems so disordered!

To fully understand the magnitude of that statement, we need to first understand the dichotomy between order and disorder. On a human level, we flee from disorder and suffering, and we long for order. And yet all creation is continually moving towards disorder and chaos, as described in the second law of thermodynamics (creation, in and of itself, moves towards a state of entropy). Think of a tree that falls in the forest. Can it, of its own accord, pick itself up? No. In fact, once it has fallen, it will begin to die and decompose; it cannot return to an orderly way of being. This desire of ours for order and nature’s tendency towards disorder is a result of the Fall.

Before that fateful moment, all creation (including man) was ordered rightly; God was the center of all things, and all things were perfectly obedient to Him. After the Fall, we see a drastic and jarring change: man struggles against the natural tendency towards chaos on a daily basis. It starts right in the morning for most of us. Admit it: you hate the sound of your alarm clock. Your alarm clock is a signal to you of order, and your fallen nature desires to do its own thing.   That’s why the snooze button was invented: to give you a second (and third…and fourth…) chance at starting your day in an orderly manner. Disorder can lead to sin, while order leads to virtue. Sadly, due to Adam and Eve’s disobedience, we find it easier to sin (live in disorder), rather than to do good (live in order).

We need help in order to regain control. In our struggle, there is a beacon of hope: Mary. As one free from original sin, she did not have concupiscence (fallen man’s tendency towards sin). Mary’s vision was unclouded by sin. For this reason, when God asked her to be the Mother of Jesus, she consented. Oftentimes we fail to see beyond this moment in Mary’s life. We neglect to recognize that her whole life was lived out as a “yes” to God. In my own life, this truth is slowly coming into focus. I have recently become a mother, and I am realizing how profoundly demanding motherhood is. Yes, there are the natural demands of my little one (diapers, feeding, etc), but this is just the surface. On a very profound level, I am realizing what it means to live in a constant state of “yes”. Finding out we were pregnant was our first “yes” (acceptance of this wonderful news), but each moment after that has been a re-echoing of that attitude. Even in difficult moments, I need to give myself completely for the sake of this little being that God has entrusted to me. In one sense, I am just doing what I need to do. But, taken to a spiritual level, I am living in the “yes” of Mary, and bringing order into disorder.

Mary’s acceptance of God’s will was perfect in all things, and therefore was rightly ordered. This attitude reaches far beyond the joyful events of life, and even embraces the difficulties present before us. In Mary, I can find strength to do that which is unpleasant (e.g. feeding my infant at 3am) for love of God. If, like her, I can accept all things as part of God’s amazing plan for my life, then my life and actions become a prayer. It is this very disposition which restores order into even the most tumultuous situations. In a sense, when I align my will to God’s will, I am participating in a reversal of the effects of the Fall; the Fall brought disobedience and disorder, while living a life faithful to the Lord brings obedience and order.

God’s ways are often mysterious to us. Therefore, accepting them necessarily involves an openness to trust. If God is all-good, there can be no evil in Him. Mary knew this, and lived accordingly. In light of this realization, the opening quote comes to light: Mary would have done anything necessary, in order that God’s will would be fulfilled. No mother wants to see her child suffer. Neither did she. And yet, she was willing, like Abraham, to offer the Son she held so dear. She was yearning, in fact, to sacrifice her own desire for a greater good. As she stood at the foot of His holy cross, she said her “yes” once again to God’s plan. In her we find strength in sorrow. Through her we come to a fuller realization of our ultimate goal: to love and serve God in this life, so as to be happy with Him for all eternity in Heaven. This is the ultimate reversal of the Fall, and it was opened to us through the cross. Mary was able to accept it, even though she had no foresight of how the execution of her Son would ultimately affect the salvation of countless souls. She simply stood (yes, she stood at the foot of the cross) and lovingly accepted God’s mysterious plan. May we, through her intercession, daily strive to give our “yes” with loving obedience, and complete trust in God’s beautiful plan in our lives.



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Peter’s Promises, Christ’s Prophecies: Living the Evangelical Counsels

Peter is one of my favorite Apostles, because he was just plain human.  During his time with Jesus, he made so many mistakes, and yet he remained faithful.  I too, more often than not, blunder and fall.  It is then that I look to St. Peter, whom I have declared the patron saint of stupid moments.  And boy, did Peter ever have “stupid moments”.  Here’s a brief rundown of just a few highlights (low-lights?) from Peter’s 3-year training:

  1. Peter wants to walk on water, so Jesus invites him to do so.  The wind picks up a bit and he gets scared.  This is not the first gust of wind Peter has experienced on the water—he is a fisherman by profession, after all!
  2. Among the Apostles, Peter is selected as the leader.  Jesus gives him the keys, and as soon as he gets his hands on them, Peter starts telling the Lord what to do.  Sheesh.
  3. At the Last Supper, Peter vows that he will follow his Master, even to death.  Then, when asked by a woman if he knows Jesus, Peter becomes petrified with fear.  His denial of Jesus is more than a momentary hesitation—he repeats it three times.  Imagine if a soldier had asked him if he knew the prisoner!  Peter would have fainted!

So, why do I love St. Peter so much?  Because in each of those three situations (and in many more) I can see myself.  At times, I too want to do the impossible.  I ask God to grant my wish, but as soon as I step out, I falter at the first signal of opposition.  In my prayer, I sometimes find myself telling God what to do for me, instead of asking with humility.  And, lastly, I don’t always give a testimony to my faith when I am persecuted or questioned.

There is one more thing that attracts me to Peter, and that is his promise to the Lord.  Each of us is called to live the Evangelical counsels (poverty, chastity and obedience) according to his/her state in life.  Peter, in one of his last encounters with the Lord, got it right.  In a way, he vowed to live these three Evangelical counsels to the full.


Jesus asked him, “Do you love me more than these?”  More than who?  Was it the other Apostles and disciples, perhaps?  Or was it a question referring to possessions, power, etc?  It’s as if Jesus was asking Peter if he would choose Him as his only Possession, his only Treasure.  Christ is calling him to renounce all other attachments and to only cling to Him.  Peter replies with a promise: “You know that I love you.”  Then the Lord ask him to feed His lambs.  The young lambs are most needy, and to him who has just professed a desire to follow Christ in poverty, it is plainly shown that in poverty are found all the riches needed to feed those poorer than himself.

This promise of Peter comes with an assurance from the Lord as well: Peter is to stretch out his hands, like a beggar, in his old age.  Not in need, however but in praise and surrender as he gives his life for the Lord through a martyr’s death.  Only hands that are empty can be filled.


A second time Peter is asked, “Do you love me?”  This time, the question is simplified, for Peter’s oneness of heart has been established in voluntary poverty.  Love is required for a pure gift of self, through which an echo of the original (pre-lapsarian) justice and purity is felt.  Peter answers with the beauty of a simple and faithful heart: “Yes, Lord.  You know that I love you.”  It is then that he is asked to tend the Lord’s sheep.  The loving care of a chaste follower of Christ bears the marks of consecration and of witness.  Purity puts others before one’s self, and thus gives true care and tenderness.  The flock may be fed through poverty, but it can only be tended through chaste love.

Now again, just as in the first promise, we see the Lord’s portion:  He promises Peter that another will gird him.  Chastity is a splendid garment which only the Lord can bestow on a soul completely dedicated to Him.  By this promise, Jesus lets Peter know that He will give him the grace to preserve this beautifyl garment in life and in death.


A third time Peter hears the question from the Lord’s lips.  This time something in his nature rebels momentarily.  It is his will.  But Peter humbles himself and submits to the yoke of this obedience in his response of love.  The request resulting from this profession is that he feed the Lord’s sheep.  Jesus, for whom obedience to the Father’s will was as food, now offers this “food” to the Apostle, so that he can feed the sheep.  Obedience is the food of those who have matured in the faith, and Peter overflows with this grace.  This precious gift must be shared, for who can contain the love of God?

For a third promise, there is a third prophecy:  Peter will be led where he does not wish to go in his old age.  This is the promise of martyrdom, which begins there, on the day of his triple profession of love.  Standing there on the sand, he is led to realize that a life of fidelity to Christ will lead to martyrdom.  But now a fire burns in his heart, as he sees in this his vocation.  Only through fulfilling the Lord’s will can he be fully fulfilled in life!  Only through this path can he give glory to the one he once denied.

Peter promised, Christ prophesied.  The Church stands firm on this foundation.  The evangelical counsels are a sure and timeless way by which to come to eternal salvation.  Poverty, chastity and obedience call for a “white” martyrdom—the martyrdom in which our own selfish will is subjected and we allow God’s ways to triumph.  This entails a death, although not a bloody one.  Only a few are called to physically shed their blood.  All of us are called to lay down our life, in one way or another, for love of Christ.

“The blood of the martyrs is the seed of Christians.”
(“Sanguis martyrum, semen Christianorum”)

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